Hubby needs prayers now

[june72]

Lisa you are still in my prayers! I am here if you need me.

[katlnhats]

Me too, Lisa, just like June is. Anytime.

Hugs,
Marilyn

[misothere]

Thanx bunches, it's most appreciated at this awful stage in my life. I keep strong thru' family, friends & this website by meeting people who truly seem to care about me.

[sunlover5]

(((misothere))) Thinking of you.

[misothere]

Thanx sunlover5

[katlnhats]

(((((((((((Lisa)))))))))))))

You are strong, but it's OK not to be too, this is an awful time in your life..

Hugs,
Marilyn

[misothere]

Big "front" - I call the shower "my wailing room"!!

Both me & my daugher have this saying.........
"Smilng on the outside & crying on the inside"!

Pretty much that's gonna' not happen to much longer!!

Grief - Survival - etc.........(My favorite saying "USED TO BE", ..........."I LOVE MY LIFE" & now it's changed so drastically...........I still am in shock - tomorrow "I'LL CRACK FOR SURE")!

[sunlover5]

I can only imagine what you and your daughter are going through. One of my best friends died recently (at age 45) and the grief seems to come in waves...some days have been okay as I remember her wonderful qualities and the times we shared, while others have been very, very rough. I think it helps to allow yourself to feel sad when you need to and not try to "be strong." I'm glad that you two have each other to lean on during these difficult times.

Take care,
(((misothere)))

[misothere]

Saturdays service was made easier by 6 collage boards of pictures & a table set up with another collage of our wedding, dart trophy, Nascar items, even baby book.

So many people attended & many stories of happy times made it easy to not be broken down in tears the whole time. Over 120 lines in the quest book are filled in & some have 2 names on the line. Plus 80-100 friends & family came back to my sister's for the "after gathering" for more sharing of good times over good eats in nice weather.
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Yesterday my daughter's father (my ex) passed on & his services are tomorrow ONLY 4 DAYS after my hubby/her step dad since she was 6 & she's 21.

I'm worried about her (especially this father's day when she may feel a huge void then) :-(

[katlnhats]

Lisa,
While it's so awful about Vic and Brian, Mandi and you have each other - thank God for that. Father's Day will probably be hard for you both. Hugs and continued prayers,
Marilyn

[june72]

Continued prayers for you both Lisa!

I know you can endure this you are tough and as you once told me..........I was a rock......so are you and I know that God made you a tough rock and you can endure!

Not everyone can endure the things that your life has dealt you, God seen that you would be able to endure and he chose you to be the special person in their lives to take care of them while they were here on this earth! They may be gone in flesh but they will always be with you in spirt!

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

[misothere]

God only knows the only rock I am (or have) is "rocks in my brain" lately! Weds. when I went to pick my Hubby's ashes up at funeral parlor - I missed the street & got lost!!

That same nite on route to service for my Ex, I missed the exit & felt so bad for my daughter since I felt like she thought I just didn't want to show up. (I showed up "for her" & frankly.....was NOT a Rock for her, wicked bad day all around which made me feel even worse & totally NOT together - which I "should've been" for her sake)! :-(

I love the Ocean..........yet
"my life has become the ocean & I hate the present & future waves" of High & Low tides that my feelings are going thru'.

I do know that this is part of my healing process & I think with me just knowing that, then I'll be okay someday.

Plus I have "strong family support" & "MY PEOPLE" (friends) that care & are looking out for me.

Hubby did not "leave me totally alone", some of his good friends that go way back - I know I can call if I need something & they'll help me & it means SO much!

Plus me & Mandi will always be there for each other!

[sunlover5]

(((misothere)))

[misothere]

Today 2 of "my people" came & we took lots of dead branches of a tree that's close to the house.

I was shown how to ride the lawn tractor, but after filling it up with leaves etc - it died out back while dumping them.

I put gas in it & tried starting it after 1.5 hours thinking I flooded it..........I'm so-o-o not used to doing "all this stuff" that I must learn to do now.

Say a prayer that I can learn how to do the things hubby did for 15 years by myself now please.

[june72]

Oh Lisa!! You are stronger than you think and I know you can get thru this!
I am sure Mandi understands that you are going thru a lot also! I am so glad that you have such family and love and support! You deserve it very much!

You sound like me! I am learning how to weed eat.......needless to say I am minus a piece to my rose bush and a few other flowers Sad part is my 9 year old can do as well of a job if not better than me using it! Just don't tell him I said that!! I have wanted a weed eater for years and finally got one and I am loving it.

I will pray that you ajust to all of this and learn very fast!!