My mom passed away ..2 days ago..i have no dad..i'm 16 and now i feel alone and numb

[HysteriaMuSec]

I've lived alone with my mom all my life..she was a really good mom..really caring..never wanted to be centre of attention or for anyone to help her..but was always there for others taking on their troubles..being that shoulder to cry on. I wish i had been nicer to her when she was still here..but for the past year we've been constantly arguing about her going to doctor cause she was never well..and she was gettin worse cause of depression and other stuff.Anyway i had to call out an ambulance to her cause one morning she was really unwell..and they took her away after a lot of struggling.she'd been in hospital for about 2 weeks and they kept saying she probably wasn't going to survive..and so i've been in shock over the whole situation for the past weeks..anyway after slowly getting better she did pass away on sunday..and i don't know what to do.I feel like i have no reason to get up in the morning..there's no one else in the house because its always just been me and mom..the rest of my family have been very helpful but they all live in different parts of england far away from me. so i'm feeling quite alone at the moment..i'm finding it hard to even think about whats happened ..i just break down. i 'll be 17 soon and i can't believe i'm going to live the rest and majority of my life with her as a memory. i need her to be there like she's always been.. i wish i could just see her again i'd hug her and never let go. But i'll never see her again..the person who i've loved the most..my mom. my nan also passed away a year ago..and my nan and my mom were the two most important people in my life..and they kept each other going. but now i've lost them both. and i have noone i can cry infront of ..or no one i feel really at ease with..its so confusing and horrible. i just don't know what to do..or how to be ..or how to react..i gotta help plan the funeral now with my uncle's who i've never spent much time with..like the rest of my family cause they live far away. and people keep saying i should talk about how i feel and let it all out...but i don't feel i can unless i'm on my own..so i'm typing out all my feelings here. i've never felt so sad its impossible to put into words. i just wish she was here. but i gotta get on with my life and turn into an adult and everything its just so hard to accept what happened so quickly..i keep thinking she's just gonna walk in. ok well i gotta find try and think of what song my mom would have wanted to be played at her funeral ..so i'm gonna go..thanks for giving me somewhere i could let all this out. bye

[pandybat]

Awww...you know, I can't imagine living without my mother either but I would do it if I had to. Be strong. You're mother would not want you to be feeling like this. This is all too new for you right now and you are going to be having alot of emotions come up before it's all over. Your mother and nan are looking down upon you right now and hoping that you give it all you have to keep yourself going.
Cherish the time with them that you did spend. There's alot of people out in the world that don't have mothers or never knew their mothers. You are one of the lucky ones! I wish you the best. You can do this. Be strong in your mothers honor.
You've come to the right place to talk. There are many people here that have gone through the same thing you have. Get involved here. Look around, grab a forum that interests you and dive in. You will find that you are quite welcome here and don't have to be alone right now.
((((HysteriaMuSec)))

[3tbear]

I am so sorry to hear of your mom's passing, I know how difficult it is for you, I lost my Dad a few years ago, I didn't think I could handle it, I was so upset. It's also tough being so young and on your own. You know you can talk to anyone here at DOD and there will always be someone here to listen. I consider this place my second family, and you should too. If you want someone to talk to, you can PM or E-mail me at any time. I don't know what your situation is if you are living in a house, or an apartment? Perhaps you could get a roommate to help out by paying rent, or a cat for company. That has got to be the toughest thing to do, be thrown into adulthood right now when you're not ready for it. I feel for you, really I do. Hang in there OK? You will get through this, it will take time, I can't say that it won't. It takes time to heal, but you will. My thoughts are with you.

Here is a web-site that lists organizations that can help you grieve. I don't know if any are near you, but I think it would be worth calling one of them. I'm sure they will be able to give you the support you need at this time. Just click on your country.

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[maura_x3]

i dont know if youre going to see this but i came across it and i wanted to say something so i made one of these. im 16 i live in america.. today is 8 weeks since my mom passed away it was the hardest thing ive ever had to deal with i have a dad and brothers but my mom was my best friend ever and i completely understand what your saying about feeling alone because even with all my friends and family i feel like i ahve no one because i dont have my mom. im going to a dance with a kid that only my mom really got how much i liked and the only person i want to tell is her my dad and brothers could care less about it other than "oh im gonna beat him up if he touches you" its the worst thing ever i randomley breakdown and i dont know what to do i broke down and could hardly breathe at soccer cause my coach sed so how are you doing ? and it feels like nothing will ever be right.. i dont know what to do with myself. i would really like to talk to you my email is [Only registered and activated users can see links. Either login above or Register Now] so if you ever see this email me another thing is a friend of mine got me a journal and when im really upset i write in it or i walk to the cemetary and just talk to my mom out loud and everything it really helps me. my mom was like a mother to alot of kids especially one friend of mine and the day of a memorial mass for my mom he told me his parents were making him move the only person i could think of who could make him not move was my mom she would take him in in a second and so at the mass i just cried and prayed that she could take a second from socializing in heaven and help me get him to stay .. later that dayy his mom called and asked if i could move in and i just knew my mom made that happen cause u couldnt go on without her AND him. everything reminds me of her and i just wish she was here im so sorry about your mom and again please email me♥

[katlnhats]

Huge-gentle-hugs and prayers for both of you who've recently lost your Moms. I feel horrible for you and will be praying for you - keep on posting anywhere on here, we'll try really hard to help you.

Katlnhats

[verwon]

Yes, please return and post more, chat away, that is what we are here for, you will find many friendly and supportive people here that you can lean on. I grew up without a mother, just my dad to raise me, so I do understand how you feel.

[june72]

I am so sorry for your loss! I lost my mom less than 2 years ago and I miss her much! My heart aches for her, but I know she is at peace with the Lord and she wouldn't want me to be sad. It don't mean that I am not, but I try not to be. If you need someone to talk to email or pm me anytime, this is for any of you that need someone to talk to. Just remember that God is right there to get you thru this!

[katlnhats]

Hi,

If either of you have any updates on your life, want to talk or need prayers or support, please come back and post here...

Gentle Hugs,

Kat

[discomoon]

My mother passed away when I was 14, I am 18 now. I know it is hard. I lived with my mother as well. I now live with my father. My mom was my everything. My whole world revolved arond her. I had very dew friends then, beacuse she was my most important. I'm writting to tell you that as much I would like to say it is going to get easier, I would be lieing. Graduation is going to suck. so is any other big event. It will always be a part of you. Your life will never ever be the same. As years go on you will grow numb sometimes. And I hate to say it you will forget you ever had one. It will feel like a dream. you will tend to cry now and then. Forget is the scariest part. I suggest you write down your memories now find lots of pictures. You will never forget the funeral day. You will remember every detail. 'm sorry for your loss, it sucks. I dont understand why it happens. resently I have gotten angry and bitter. Also It helps when you talk to people who knew her. Also make sure you take control of this funeral. It will go by so fast and certain decisions are important. Be strong. And dont go looking for that love you have lost. It can be a bad thing. My mother loved me like no one else. When I lost her I lost love, that I sometimes go looking for. it gets me in trouble and breaks my heart.

[britluver20021]

I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I am a Jehovah's witness and would like to share some information with you on death. Can you email me at [Only registered and activated users can see links. Either login above or Register Now]

[bunnyfarm]

i'm sorry for your lose, I will pray for you.

[iluvcoupons]

My prayers are with you ((((Hugs))))

[SPHSBABY92]

MY MOTHER PASSED AWAY FEBURARY 15 08.AND I DONT KNOW HOW IT IS NOT TO HAVE A DADDDY.BUT I DO KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO LOSE A MOTHER.AND ITS NOT EASY IM 15 YEARS OLD.AND ITS SO HARD.WITH HOLIDAYS AND ALL ITS SO HARD.JUST ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT YOUR MOTHER IS IN SUCH A BETTER PLACE THAN SHE WAS HERE.AND THAT SHES NOT HURTING NO MORE.THAT IS ALWAYS WHAT KEPT ME STRONG.I KNOW WE DONT KNOW EACH OTHER BUT IF U EVER WANT TO TALK JUST WRITE ME.

!ALISHA!

[mynanforever]

I am so sorry.