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My mother passed away when I was 14, I am 18 now. I know it is hard. I lived with my mother as well. I now live with my father. My mom was my everything. My whole world revolved arond her. I had very dew friends then, beacuse she was my most important. I'm writting to tell you that as much I would like to say it is going to get easier, I would be lieing. Graduation is going to suck. so is any other big event. It will always be a part of you. Your life will never ever be the same. As years go on you will grow numb sometimes. And I hate to say it you will forget you ever had one. It will feel like a dream. you will tend to cry now and then. Forget is the scariest part. I suggest you write down your memories now find lots of pictures. You will never forget the funeral day. You will remember every detail. 'm sorry for your loss, it sucks. I dont understand why it happens. resently I have gotten angry and bitter. Also It helps when you talk to people who knew her. Also make sure you take control of this funeral. It will go by so fast and certain decisions are important. Be strong. And dont go looking for that love you have lost. It can be a bad thing. My mother loved me like no one else. When I lost her I lost love, that I sometimes go looking for. it gets me in trouble and breaks my heart.